Tuesday, December 27, 2016

Whats this?


Well its been around 3 years since I have made a post. Whoops! In 2017 I am making a goal to post more frequently. I really want to give this a solid go.

Lets go ahead and do a little update on all the things going on in my life. Saria will be 7 in January! I can hardly believe it. She is currently attending a private STEM academy and loves it! She is really into cooking, baking, arts, crafts, MLP, LPS, and FNAF. She can be quite the firecracker but she is pretty darn awesome. Her little brother Drake just turned 5 in November and he is close to losing his two bottom teeth. He is in Pre-K at the same school as his sister and he loves it. He pretty much enjoys all the things his big sis does but he also loves Minecraft and Yo-Kai Watch.

Doug works a lot, usually 40-50 hours a week. One day he will have the day shift the next is a night shift. We are hoping that things calm down soon but he is considering looking for a job elsewhere (The company he works for was recently bought out by another one and no one knows if they will even get to keep their job). So things on that end are a little stressful.

My turn. During the day when the kids are at school I clean, when the kids get home I take care of them and in the evening I am either streaming on Twitch or working on plans for starting my own business. I have a little hobby thing going on and with enough dedication I am hoping that it can become something more. All I need is to earn some money so I can invest in supplies, business cards etc. Working towards it but it can be a little rough at times. It seems like whenever I have a couple bucks saved up an emergency happens. My health has been pretty terrible lately, but I will go more into that on another post.

I think that is all for now! Feel free to ask questions if you have any, and I will be sure to post again soon(tm)

Have a great day and thanks for reading!

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

here is an oldie

This is from back in 2007

As I lay here
Wondering why
Why am I so alone inside
Am I that ugly
Am I just wrong
Why don't you hold me
Make me feel strong

Dying inside like a forgotten past
Many may know me but they really don't
I try to look happy
Hold it inside
Try to be lovely
But I'm just so damn empty inside

Pretend to care
It just makes it worse
Backstabbing and heartache
can it get any worse
I don't know what to do any more
I just cant feel my arms anymore
My whole body is just dead inside
Please I just say please
Hold me in your arms tonight

I long for your love
I long for your touch
Im outta breath running towards you now
Is this to much to ask
I feel the pain begin to die down
Sitting, laying here on the ground
Things begin to feel alright
Im not alone as though it may seem
There are thousands just like me
Wanting love from those they cannot have

April 23 2013

Hello all, I know I said I would post every day but I was wrong. Some things came up. What are those things? Well spring cleaning and taking care of my kids, The hubs had a man cold, after everyone goes to bed I head to the gym for an hour and then when I had time to post I just wanted to climb in bed. So I apologize  Something else has been going on in my life but I feel if I mention it out loud it will make me sound insane. Maybe in another post I will mention it. Who knows.

So my oil pulling has been going great. At first it was a bit weird but my skin is getting softer and I have less breakouts! Huzzah!

Workouts have been going well. I am so out of shape its rather disgusting. But a mile on the treadmill wears me out. I use to be able to run 4 miles without stopping! This is going to be a long and hard fight to get me back where I belong.

Monday, April 15, 2013

April 15 2013

Hello friends! I have not posted here in ages! But I am turning over a new leaf and will be posting daily! Even if it is just to say that I did nothing :p

Lets start today off with the kids.
Drake is 16 months old, 25lb and 31 inches tall. His favorite show is Pingu, his favorite book is Mommy loves me, His favorite game is picking up animals and growling while throwing them at your face. He is a huge music fan and tries to sing along with the radio.
Saria is 3, Her favorite show is Power Rangers Dino Thunder, Yo Gabba Gabba and Beverly Hills Chihuahua 2 and 3. Her favorite book is Chicka Chicka Boom Boom, her favorite game is play cooking and driving adults insane. She too is a big fan of music and sings along.

Lets see now. I would discuss Doug but not much to say. He works all day and then in the evening he relaxes with WoW and Minecraft. He has almost all level 90s now.

I guess I am left now. In January I had laterjet surgery on my right shoulder, I recently started physical therapy and attend that every Wednesday at the VA. I now attempt to work out daily in hopes of gaining muscle and toning up the disaster that is my stomach. I decided to start Oil pulling today. I must say.... It did feel really weird having coconut oil dissolve on my tongue!

I have become a jumbo nerd and am in love with the shows Doctor Who and Sherlock. I also have a weird thing for the show Glee.
I am starting to get back into gaiming and am thinking of recording it and putting it on youtube. I doubt their would be interest but maybe people might be interested in watching a girl attempt to game.

Any questions, comments or suggestions just hit me up! Thanks for stopping by!

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Sunday chatter

Hello and happy Sunday everyone! Today I will talk about a lovely cake I made and just talk about the random things floating around my head, plus the kids :)

The Cake!
Its a Caramel Pudding Cake! It's ingredients are what you usually have in the pantry so it was fairly simple.

1 cup butter
3 cups flour

1 teaspoon salt
2 cups brown sugar
1 cup granulated sugar
1 teaspoon baking powder

1 cup milk
3 cups boiling water


1. Cream butter and granulated sugar.
2. Add flower, baking powder and salt.
3.Stir in milk and mix until smooth.
4.Spread into greased 9x13-inch pan.
5.Boil water and dissolve brown sugar(add in 1-2 tablespoons of butter for a stronger caramel flavor). Pour over batter.
6.Bake at 350°F for 1 hour.

Be very careful when putting the cake in the oven because the liquid mixture easily sloshes over the edge.
After baking it is a yummy cake that everyone can enjoy.
What it looks like fresh from the oven. I suggest waiting for it to cool and the caramel sauce to set a little. Goes great with some vanilla bean ice cream :)

Okay! Next topic! Kids! Saria is in a phase where she is always right and her imaginary friend is quite the trouble maker. I personally am not a fan of her little friend. He lives in her closet and moves things around the house. According to her, he is not very fond of me. I am unsure of his name because she isn't allowed to tell me or say it out loud. He honestly gives me the creeps.
Drake keeps battling an illness. As soon as he is better he gets sick again. I will spare the dirty details but everything I am concerned about just about everyone tells me its no big deal. He is having tummy troubles, not really gaining weight (probably because of the tummy troubles) and his breath. His breath has a fruity nail polish remover scent or like a bad fruit on the bottom yogurt a good portion of the time. I will get to the bottom of it all. Overall though he is fairly happy.

Random thoughts in my head. I really want to go back to school. I want to work for the USGS or ISGS. I love the world of Geophysics. Why can't my local university have a decent program for it? Why can't I find into classes for online schools? *insert whiny sob*

Well thanks for checking in today! Have a wonderful day!

Monday, October 15, 2012

October 15

I apologize in advance for the spelling and grammar issues this post will have. We did not sleep very well last night.
So this weekend was a fairly good one! On Saturday we went to Glenn's Ferry for a wedding and we had a pretty good time! It is so beautiful down there, but the wind was insane! I made the mistake of wearing a dress. Every time I was outside I had to hold it down! Saria had a blast playing with kids her age and Drake loved all the ladies talking to him. He LOVES attention.
Both Friday and Saturday night Drake slept though the night and it was GLORIOUS! It was so nice not having to get up two or three times to nurse him. But Sunday night he decided to get up at midnight to eat and then two in the morning was a good time to play but the play had to be in my lap. Me being so kind (Not wanting to wake up Doug and Saria) I obliged and kept him busy. He fell back asleep a little after five in the morning.Saria made sure to wake us up at seven.

Saria loved it here

He was crazy for crackers

That is all for now. I will check back in soon.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012


Lately in the hustle and bussel of things moving so quickly before me I find myself slightly zoned out. Day dreaming about what I had dreamed the night before or secret wishes of mine that I hide from others.
It's one of those things that you sit and think, "Wouldn't it be cool if this happened". But it is also one of those things that are better off left for the dreams.

If I chased after all the dreams I have, I know in the moment I would be happy and love it all.... But after it was over, whether or not I achieved it, was successful or a flop... I would be upset. It's the thrill of the chase and hunt. The end is what I dislike.

I will go ahead and give an example. I have been having a dream rather frequently that I opened up a bakery and lived above it with my family. I love to bake, but the travel to get to a culinary school would not be good for the family. Also living above a bakery? It may smell great but it would ruin sweets for us I am sure.

Some dreams are meant to stay just that. Dreams.

Now off to work on packing more things. Only have 10 days left until we move to our new place, which means 9 days left to pack it all up!